Alright, thats it. Im ready for a closure. For real this time.
Its okay to miss, its okay to wish, but its done.
No more hoping. No more trying. No more thinking.
Just get up and get over.
I think i'll do okay. I mean, no i can never forget.
But i think i'll do okay. & once im over, i'll be brand new.
I mean, im on my way. Right?

Okay yknow what, who am i kidding right, the truth here.
I dont even know the phase im in. Sometimes i think im stuck at "moving on", sometimes i feel so superior, and im actually feeling like im getting over. I never actually know lah tbh.
Im more of going with the flow, and when i fall, I take a while or a few days to move on and get over.
But after that incident, i think im more stronger and determined to get up and go. No more led on, no more hoping, no more caring, just get up and go.
I know im able to do this, but no more falling too, no more wishing too.
And deep down, yes iwanna do it, but am i actually gonna do it. As in, am i actually really not gonna fall anymore. Because im darn afraid i'll fall again.
I gotta push myself, im gonna set my mind straight into it, and build walls as high as possible, and im gonna be able to do it.
Im more determined than i was before, because ive came to a realisation, that i can get up and move forward.

What im afraid of, is just falling. I dont wanna be back on square one again. I just wanna move on.
Mmmhmm, i know i'll be able to do this.

♣ Assalamulaikum, I'm Nur Syafiqah. May Allah grant us the Jannahtul Firdaus, and may He place us among the pious. Ameen. If you happen to be in my blog when im no longer around, i seek for your prayers, and forgive me for my wrongdoings.